…you nearly made up your mind….. …..you have almost decided…………. ….on what to do….. ….on who to choose……. ……you have layed your eyes…….. …..to someone…….. …..you felt comfortable……. …..to someone….. ….easing your burden….. …..wiping your tears…….. ……mending your heart…….. ……….someone who….. …..held your weary soul….. …..helped you rest…… …..your ever-chasing heart……. ……..to someone……… …..who hears when you called……… ………..picked you up when you were down……. …………kept you when you had nowhere to go…………..
………flashbacks run through your mind………. ……a memory lay between…….. ……your eyes as you close them…… ………..sweet memories of yesterday………. ………..this feeling……… …..you feel the same thing………. ….before…. …..as you are feeling now……….. ……a feeling of comfort………. …….an emotion………. ……that you can never……… …..forget……. …..a cherished treasure………….. ………..that can never be forgotten…….. ……..the memory of……..
…..first love……..
………sweet……. ……….dreamy……… …..happy…….
….true…..
…..as sweet as it can be….. ….it stays in your memory….. …..even when you sleep……….. ……even as you dream….. ……it puts a smirk on your face…… ……you were happy….. …..and the best part of it……. …..it happened to you…….. …..it was a dream came true….. ….there were never a dull moment……… …..everything seems a fairy tale……. …..a happy ending……….. …….so happy, it puts you to sleep……. …….with happy dreams……. …high hopes……. ……..like a child…. ……before getting tucked….. …..at night…..
……..everything’s fine…….. ……..a fairy tale……. ……..she is the princess……… …..you are the knight in shining armor….. …….you fell in love….. ……you became happy…… …..everybody seems happy for you…… …..they celebrate for the both of you….. ………..they think of the most romantic love story……. ………..and you are the protagonists……. ………….and everything ends at a happy ending………
……..you wish that it was true……… ….you wish that your love can save you…….. ……..you wish that she can never hurt you……. ………….you wish that all she can say is the truth……….. ………because trust, love and time……….. ………..is the only thing you can give her……… …………..you wish……….
………after you’ve been together for so long……….. ……..you thought that everything…….. …….will not change…….. ……between the two of you…….. ………..you only thought…….. ……….you need her………. ………….her love……….. ………..her time……… ………her trust…….. ……..but……… …………she needs….. ……….space………
………….it seems that both of you…………. ……….are drifting apart……….. …………..the more you chase her…………. ……….the more she drifts away……….. ………….you reached out your hand……… ………but she never noticed you……… ………..you called her name………. ……….but she never heard you………. ………..you asked for her help……… ……….but she was already gone………. ……….and by the time you catch up….. …….your heart’s already bleeding….. ……your soul’s already weary………. ………….and your mind and body is already tired…….. ………wasted time…….. ……is what you’re thinking…….. ………it could have been a moment…….. ……….out of all the short time you have in this world……… …….a moment to be with her…….. …..a moment that should’ve been cherished…….. …….a moment that shouldn’t be forgotten……. ……..a moment now gone…….. …..cannot be replaced by…….. …….any apologies…….. (to be continued…)
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wai, hectic ang sched ko for the past few weeks. lalo na last week!! kelangan ko pumunta sa skul, nag-aabang para ma-consult sa thesis. kung baga sa kongreso, naglo-lobby kami. napulitika ata ang thesis namin. tapos may mga nomo-sessions pa pag gabi, kelangang magpilit gumising ng maaga kahit may hang-over… yun nga lang, hindi pa rin ako bumabangon, hehe.. tapos, umattend pa ako ng debut last friday. akalain mo, sa tanda kong ito, makukuha pa ako na isa sa mga 18 roses!! nagbirthday kasi si teks last friday, at 21 years old na siya, ayy mali, 18 years old lang pala!! umalis ako dito ng tanghali ng friday, tapos dumating kami doon ng 5 pm. 6 pm kasi yung debut e, kaya lang nalimutan kong nasa Pilipinas nga pala ako, kaya 8 o’clock na nagsimula. okay lang naman, nagpanggap akong hindi marunong magwaltz (e di naman ako talaga marunong sumayaw, shhhh!!). medyo nagkausap din kami ni keilen after so long ng pagtatago niya.. medyo nagkausap kasi halos tulog na kami noon. medyo naging malinaw ang lahat, kahit medyo malabo pa rin. puro sorry na naman, kaya lang, baka ulit-ulitin ulit ang mga bagay-bagay.tapos, umuwi din ako kinabukasan, saturday, ng hapon. 3 pm ako sumakay ng van, 5 pm kami umalis, pakshet talaga!! mas mahaba pa ang tulog ko paghihintay ng pag-alis kaysa noong nagbibiyahe na kami!! tapos pagdating ko dito, hindi tuloy ang nomo-session. tapos binalita pa sa akin na hindi na daw tuloy ang tribute to the graduates. na-cancel daw, buti naman, para bawas sa abala. tutugtog daw kasi kami doon,hehe. buti naman, iwas kahihiyan!! siguro rest lang muna ngayong holy week, kasi baka next week, hectic na naman, thesis at ojt naman ang aasikasuhin. at hanggang ngayon, wala pa rin akong company na pag-o-ojt-han!! yung iba kong mga classmates, nakaalis na!! eniweiz, next time na lang ulit…
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Translation
i have a hectic schedule these few weeks. especially last week!! i need to go to school, waiting for our consultation on our thesis. if it were the congress, we were lobbying. our thesis seemed politicized. then there are drinking sessions at night, need to get up early even if i have a hang-over… but, i still don’t get up, hehe… then i attended a debut party last friday. believe me, on my age, i never thought that i can be one of the 18 roses?! teks held her birthday party last friday, and she’s already 21, umm, i mean 18 years old. i left here at around noon and arrived there at about 5pm. the party was supposed to start at 6pm, but then i forgot that i was in the Philippines, so it started at 8pm. but it’s ok, i pretended that i don’t know how to dance waltz (but i really don’t know how to dance, shhh!!!) then keilen and i also finally nearly talked to each other after hiding for so long. nearly, since we were almost asleep by then. everything seemed clear, yet it was still unclear. apologies again, but the things might be done again. then i went home the next day afternoon. i rode the van at around 3pm, but it departed at 5pm, shit. my sleep while waiting for us to depart was longer than the one when we were already travelling. then, when i arrived, the drinking session was postponed. then i heard the news that the tribute to the graduates was cancelled. it’s good, less worries. they say that we’ll perform there, hehe. it’s good, less embarrassment. i’ll just probably rest this holy week, since i’ll be busy next week, i’ll do my ojt and thesis. and as of now, i don’t have any company to have my ojt. my other classmates have already gone.
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