Month: August 2007

…and now…      …another chance has been given…..                ….it’s like…..              …..a new day….                       …..to rejoice…..                  ….to smile….               ….and to suffer….                    …..but for the moment….           ….sufferings kept their distance…..             …..for this is the only moment….             …..that certainly must be happy….        ….a grace period….          ….before the pain comes back….                    …..you have to enjoy the moment….                     ….for you are sure that…..                    ….this happiness won’t last long…..                    …..that this feeling…..                 …..can only last for a few days…..                ….a thing that reminds you….     ….that suffering….                   ….is inevitable….                ….unavoidable….

….even though you found comfort…             ….from someone else….              …..you still think….                  ….that she….                      ….outweighs the other one…..                        ……or maybe……….                    ….it was because of the promise……                       …..the promise to never leave her side…..                …..the promise to always be there no matter what…..              ….the promise to love……               ….whatever her shortcomings are…..            ….is this called blind love?….           …..to accept a person for whoever she is?….        ….to change yourself for her….                ….even though she never changes?…..                ….you think that….    …..it’s a bit unfair….                …. but you remembered….             ……all is fair in love and war…..               ….suddenly all your hopes….                          …..for equality…..                ….vanished before your very eyes….               ….vanished before your very heart….                ….you know that…..                 ….you can never break your word….               ….for your heart can never handle pain……                       …..for letting go…..             ….will cause you…..                  ….tremendous amount of pain…..               ……and sleepless nights……                 …..your whole world will crumble….            …..you’ll fall on your knees….                 …..you doubt that you can take it……                         ….but if you don’t….               ….you’ll suffer pain over and over again…..           …..but then you realize…..                     …..a continuous amount of small pain….          ….is better than….                  ….a massive amount of pain in one blow…..                  …..it’s like……                ….being pricked by a needle….                 ….a thousand times……                ….rather than….                  ….being stabbed by a single spear once…..           …but then if you leave her…..                     …..someone will be waiting for you…..              …..a person who can’t hurt you……          …..at least yet……         …..a person who manages to find time for you…..                 ….a person who finds way to reach you….               …..a person who can seduce you…..          …..without you even knowing it….                  ….a person whom you can never stare at the eye…               ….for doing so will make you go crazy over her….                      ….a person who’s fun to talk with….       ….yet you’re always lost for words…   ….on the mere sight of her….      ….a person whom you can always be in touch with….

……….but now……                     ……is the moment of contemplation……                …..a moment to think things through……                      ………..for this moment is the time…….                  …..to be unbiased….             ……both of them are away…..           …..one is in a rural area…..                    ….the other in an urbanized city…..               …….it is the time to……                …..assess your own life……                 …..without any influence….              ….from either sides…..                 ….to make a decision……….               ….all by your own….                  ….to know…..               …what you really feel…..                  ……to ask yourself…..                     …..what are they to you?…..                    ……what their significance to you is……               …the time to separate the diamonds from the stones…..        …and now….                  ….even though they’re both away….                     ….it’s time to choose who’s closer to your heart……

….but the answer is too obvious…                    ….even though you have chemistry….                …with the other one….                          ….you have history…..                  ….with her…..                    …..memories are important to you…….                ….memories are the only things….               ….that you have….           ….good memories…..                    …..are the only things……             ….that you can be proud of…..               …..you don’t want to replace……..              …..these pleasant moments……..               …..with sadness of letting go……               ……..you want to cherish them…..             …..as if it was a more than a diamond……                 ……..the X on a treasure map….                 ….the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow…..                …..for you, you’d rather bear it all……………                ….rather give them all up….             …..but even if the choice is……..              ….obvious….                  …..you still ponder…..                     …..who’s better…..                ……the one who knows your whole self….               …..who’s been through the test of time with you….              ……but always want to distance away from you…..           …..and build a wall between the two of you…..                                                             …..or the other one…..                    …..who makes your heart jump every moment she’s near you….                   ….the one who makes you feel like a little child once again…..                          …..and always want to reach out to you….       …..even though you’re worlds apart……

…..and now….                ….not a word has been spoken….                 ….not a plea has been heard….                 ….no one will dictate you of what to do…..                     ….it’s all up to you now…..                        ….the choice….                    …..to remain the way things are…..           …..feel love, happiness and pain….                       ….or take a risk….           ….to the unknown….                            …….and hoping……..                          …..after this decision………                      ……..a bridge will be built…..                    …..between you….                 ……and the one you truly love…………..

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waa, wala na akong time mag-blog, almost every month na lang ang pagpopost ko. tapos, hindi ko na rin magawa ng one seating lang… nakakadistract talaga ang pag-iinternet.. imbes na mag-blog ako, nagsu-surf ako.. hehe, sinisi pa ang internet.. eniweiz, hirap magkunwaring may work =.=U hirap pagsabayin ng work, school, band saka lovelife..  waa, nako-combo na me.. pero kaya naman, kahit sobrang nakakapagod.. masaya naman lahat gawin ang mga yon, nagko-conflict lang talaga sa time, kaya nakakapagod at nakakastress. haha, kelangan ko talaga kasi maghabol ng oras para sa ojt, kelangan ko 800 hours.. ang problema naman, 8 hours lang ang pasok ko every weekdays.. wala pang overtime. imagine, kung kelangan ko ng ganun karaming oras, ibig sabihin kelangan kong pumasok ng exactly 5 months, which is talagang kulang ako sa oras.. compute natin, nagstart ako ng work ng july 16. kung kelangan ko ng 5 months, ibig sabihin, matatapos pa ako ng december!! e, 2nd sem na kaya yun!! tapos, kelangan pa akong umabsent dahil requirement sa skul yun ang mga meetings and assembly.. talagang kulang sa time.. pero hindi pa yun ang problema talaga.. ang problema ko ay after ng ojt.. kelangan kong pagsabayin ang work saka thesis writing!! pero ang mas malaking problema ay sa skul lang pwedeng gawin ang thesis.. tapos pag minsan kelangan pang mag-overnight sa department para lang gumawa ng thesis.. isipin mo na lang, pagkagaling ko sa overnight thesis writing, wala nang ligo-ligo, diretso na sa work para maglaway sa pagtulog kaharap ng computer.. ang hirap din naman kasi mag-leave, sayang ang sweldo, tapos baka mapalayas pa sa work dahil puro leave.. pakshet talaga..

pero ang good news, maganda ang nangyayari sa band namin!! ang last gig namin ay sa cuneta astrodome.. nagfront-act kami sa sandwich!! nakajackpot kami sa members e, isang experienced, professional drummer and musician ang drummer namin, tapos isang guitarist by blood and lead-guitarist-turned-to-bassist ang bassist namin, tapos isang musically-inclined-since-birth ang rhythms guitarist namin, tapos isang Best-in-PR na percussionist, tapos isang cute “daw” at malufet ang boses at appeal ang vocalist namin, saka isang sintunado, olats at bulokis (pero pogi) na lead guitarist!! san ka pa?! although nagkaroon lang kami ng 3 practice sessions na maraming yosi break in between, i think we pulled it through. kahit nung actual performance na, ako ang may pinakamaraming sablay. haha, hirap kasi magtimpla ng sound kapag gitara mo lang ang naririnig mo dahil wala kang monitor. 3 original songs ang required naming kantahin, so nagproduce kami mula sa hangin ng 3 kanta. pero, nagkabonus song kami dahil napahaba yung sound check namin. tinesting namin ung “makulay ang buhay sa sinabawang gulay.” haha, nagwala ang audience nung marinig nila ung song, kaya lang, hindi ko alam yung chords, kaya nagkaleche-leche, hehe.. yung first song namin, ay “iselle,” lyrics by angela, music by tracer. ang pinakamatagal nang song ng band, simula pa nung unang-una, nung iba pa ang mga members. tapos, ung second song namin ay “fantasy world,” composed pala ito ni kuya v, ngayon ko lang nalaman. para daw ito sa isa naming kakilala na umibig sa kapwa nya ______. tapos, ung finale namin ay “saging na saba”, at siyempre, composed ko!! ganito talaga ang nagagawa ng mga taong walang magawa sa buhay!! ung chorus and chords ng song ay nakuha namin nung nagpapractice kami for the debut ng dati naming drummer na si collen (psst.. tracer, collen daw..). sa bahay nila kami nagpapractice, tapos alaga kami dun ng lola ni collen.. tataba kami lahat pag nagstay kami doon ng matagal. tapos, after every meal, laging may nakahandang saging sa amin. tapos pag minsan, saging sa saba ang nakahain na may iba’t ibang luto!! tapos, pagkatapos ng almost one and a half month, pinagpatuloy ko yung song na dati ay parang jingle lang dahil chorus lang ang meron siya. ginawan ko ng verse, refrain at panibagong concept. ang setting ng song ay nag-uusap ang 2 magkababata na lalake at babae, about sa kanilang nakaraan at ang pagtatago ng mga damdamin sa isa’t isa. haha, naaliw yata ako sa pagcocompose, napahaba daw yung kanta. ang dating chorus-only na kanta ay naging song na may total of 12 verses, 3 refrains and 4 choruses plus one adlib, interlude and intro.all in all, based dun sa practice session namin, 6 mins and 39 seconds yung buong song. haha, eto na ba ang simula ng pagsikat namin?! haha, next post ko na lang ipopost yung current situation ng band, para kasing may internal conflict.. malamang magpalit ulit kami ng name. kung gusto nyo ng more info about sa band, visit nyo ang http://www.friendster.com/opensked.

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waa, i don’t have any time for blogging, i could only post for once a month. i couldn’t even do it in one seating… surfing the net is really distracting.. instead of blogging, i surf…hehe, i blame the internet..anyway, it’s hard to pretend working =.=U It’s hard to mix work, school, band and lovelife.. waa, a combo hit.. but i can do it, even if it’s too tiring.. i enjoy doing these things, it just conflict with my time, that’s why it’s tiring and stressful. haha, i really need to catch up with the time requirement for my ojt, i need 800 hours.. the problem is, i only have 8 hours of work every weekdays.. no overtime. imagine, if i need that much time, that would mean i have to go to work for exactly 5 months, which is really insufficient.. let’s compute, i started work on july 16. if i need 5 months, that would mean i would be finished on december!! but that would be 2nd sem!! then i have to take leaves due to school requirements’ meetings and assemblies.. i really lack time.. but that’s not the real problem.. the problem is after the ojt.. i need to synchronize my schedule for work and thesis writing!! but the bigger problem is that the thesis must be done on school premises only. then sometimes, staying overnight on the department is necessary just to do the thesis. think about it, after the overnight session from the thesis writing, no time to take a bath, i’ll have to go straight to work to drool while sleeping in front of the computer.. it’s also hard to take a leave, else my salary will be deducted, then i might be driven away from work because of too many leaves..shit..
but for the good news, good things are happening to our band!! our recent gig was in cuneta astrodome.. we were the front-act for sandwich!! we hit jackpot with our members, an experienced, professional drummer and musician is our drummer, then, a guitarist by blood and lead-guitarist-turned-to-bassist is our bassist, then a musically-inclined-since-birth is our rhythms guitarist, then a Best-in-PR percussionist, then a cute “allegedly” and great voice and appeal is our vocalist, then an out-of-tune, loser and sucker (but handsome) lead guitarist!! win?! although we only had 3 practice sessions with a lot of cigarette breaks in between, i think we pulled it through. even on the actual performance, i had the most mistakes. haha, its hard to mix the sound of the guitar when you don’t hear it because you don’t have a monitor. 3 original songs is the required performance, so we produced from thin air 3 songs. but there was a bonus due to our long sound check. we tried “makulay ang buhay sa sinabawang gulay.” haha, the audience went wild when they heard the song, unfortunately, i didn’t know the chords, so it became chaotic, hehe.. our first song was “iselle,” lyrics by angela, music by tracer. our oldest song in the band, ever since with the previous members. then, the second song is “fantasy world,” this was actually composed by kuya v, i just recently knew this. this was for one of our acquaintance who tried to love another ______. then, our finale was “saging na saba”, and of course, i composed this!! this is what’s produced by people who have nothing else to do!! the chorus and chords of the song was derived when we practiced for the debut party of our former drummer collen (psst.. tracer, collen..). we practiced on their house, then we were taken care by collen’s grandmother.. we would get fat if we would stay there for long. then after every meal, bananas are served to us. and sometimes, saba banana is served with different styles of cooking!! then, after almost one and a half month, i continued my work on the song that was like a jingle before, because it only contain a chorus. i mad a verse, refrain and a new concept. the setting of the song is the conversation of 2 childhood friends, a girl and a boy, about their past and the hidden feelings for each other. haha, i enjoyed composing, the song was accidentally extended. the previous chorus-only song became a song with a total of 12 verses, 3 refrains and 4 choruses plus one adlib, interlude and intro.all in all, based from our practice sessions, the song runs for 6 mins and 39 seconds. haha, is this the start of our popularity?! haha, i’ll just post the current status of the band on my nextpost, it seems to have an internal conflict.. we’ll probably change our name. if you want more info about sa band, visit http://www.friendster.com/opensked.)