….as time drifts by…. ….it got you thinking…. …and it's really hard…. ….to replace…. …the memories…. ….together… ….happy…. …and….. ….sad… …..bittersweet……… …..with tears…. ….of sorrow….. …..and joy….. ……with pain….. …..of wounds she healed…. ….and pain……. …..of wounds she caused…
……unforgettable…….. …..unforgivable…. ……yet… …..you chose to bear them once more…… ……the pain…… …..the tears………….. ……the joy………
………..yet……… …..you still chose to……… ……forgive…… …..and try to forget………. ……..for you know that………. ……someday, it will happen…….. ….once more…. …..but still try….. ….to bear with them….. ….over and over again……
….for you…. ….memories are precious….. ….you never want…….. ….to waste…. ….everything the two of you……… ….have been through….. ….you don't want………. …..to end this….. …….just like that….. …..just because of that……..
…..it may seem unfair…. …..for you…. ….a promise…. …..you made before…. ….that you will… ….always be there…. …..by her side…. ….a promise…. …..that you will…. ….heal her wounded heart….. …..and protect her…. …..from getting wounded again….. …..the stars…. ….the moon….. …..under the pale dark blue sky…. ….were all witnesses…. …..when you swore….. ….unto the heavens…. ….that you would do such things…… ….anything….. ….just to stop her tears…….. ….from flowing down her cheeks….. ….just to mend her tormented heart…….. ……ease her pain…… ….relieve her from her sufferings….. ….just to let her know….. …..she's not alone….. …that you will always be….. ….by her side…. ….to give her a shoulder to lean on……. …..to give her a new light on life….. ….that it is not always full….. ….of sufferings….. …that suffering is what we make ourselves…… …..that we fall victims to our own actions…. ….and not to blame others…. ….just to give justice…. ….to ourselves….. ….that everybody must learn…. ….that the victim…. ….can also be the accused….
…..that was the first time……… …..in your life…. ….that you felt responsible….. …..first time……… …..that you would go…. ….to the ends of the earth…… ….just to protect someone….. …….first time……. …..that you made a serious promise…… ……that even your will………. ….could never break……
waw, chapter 17.. actually special 'tong post na 'to. kasi special para sa akin ang number na 17. sinimulan kong i-type ang post na 'to ng april 17, 2007 at 10:10 PM, kaya lang antok na antok na ako noon, kaya ni-save ko na lang as draft..kaya lang, masyado akong nalibang sa buhay ko kaya ngayon ko lang ulit inedit (june 24). :P
at dahil buong summer din ako hindi nagpost sa blog, eto ang mga nangyari sa loob ng halos 2 months…
eniweiz, tapos na ang bakasyon, balik na sa school works, namely OJT. as of now, wala pa akong company na pag-oOJT-han. pero ok lang yun, kasi at least i spent some time with my loved one. yun nga lang, nasayang ang 2 linggo sa buhay naming dalawa.. at si bulutong ang dahilan, kaya ang flawless kong skin ay puro peklat.. namarkahan nga ang mukha ko e, nagkaroon ng uka dahil sa remnants ng bulutong. tanda ko pa nga noon, mukha akong chocolate chip cookie, dahil tinadtad ako sa buong katawan at mukha. at dahil dito, hindi man lang ako nakatikim ng swimming sa pool o kahit man lang sa dagat na may lumulutang na jebs.. huhu, kung kelan nasa mood ako magswimming…
tapos sa wakas, nakapagdefend na rin kami ng thesis namin, sobrang postponed talaga, may 20 yata kami nag-pre-oral defense, hindi ko sure yung date. ok naman ung defense. kung ang ibang kaklase namin ay todo gisa, feeling ko, kami ay half-cooked lang. nagdefend kami ng hindi natutulog, kasi ba naman sunday yung defense, tapos saturday lang dumating yung mga galing sa OJT.. tapos, magrerevise pa kami ng walang consultation. haha, deprived kami ng privilege na ma-consult yung thesis before the defense. at yun yung second time na isinuot ko ang pink polo uniform namin na pinatahi pa para lang sa thesis. hindi ko alam kung bakit OJT uniform ang tawag dun, e hindi naman yun gagamitin sa OJT.
tapos last june 10, tumugtog kami sa debut ng drummer ng band namin named nepOdekS. haha, almost three sundays and one saturday din kami nagpractice para lang sa event na yun!! dami naming naisip na tugtugin, too bad 3 lang yung lineup ng songs. too bad? or maybe too good? hehe.. absent si kuya v, tsaka yung bassist na hindi ko pa nasisilayan ang mukha, si van (tama ba spelling?). basta ang sure na na tutugtugin namin ay 2 original songs. ang first na pinractice namin ay "what is it to burn?" ng finch. kaya lang nareject kasi masyado daw pasigaw. tapos, "i could not ask for more" by edwin mccain, kaya lang, hindi na namin napractice kasi walang time. tapos nakapagcompose pa kami ng song, ang title ay "saging na saba", ang pangtapat namin sa song na "bangkang papel" ng digital karma. but in the end, "alone" by heart ang tinugtog namin.. sobrang daming time and money ang ginugol namin para lang sa practice na 'to. tapos, nung mismong event na,… guess what? nagkalat kami ng pinakagrabe.. kung siguro sisisihin ako, papayag ako, kasi sa gitara ko unang nagsimula ang lahat. pinilit kasi nila akong gumamit ng capo sa song, para daw maitaas ng half-step yung tone ng kanta. kaya lang gago talaga yung capo ko, right in the middle of the song, biglang lumuwag..we missed the whole second verse. and what's worst, rinig pa ata ng audience na sinisigaw namin sa vocalist na ituloy yung kanta kahit na natanga siya sa mga nangyari. but in fairness, nakumpleto ko yung guitar solo na walang masyadong errors. tapos nung pinerform na namin yung last song, napatid pa yung string ng isa naming gitarista..malas talaga. nasintunado pa ata ako nung nag-backup vocal ako, hehe di ko marinig boses ko noon e..overall, wala na kaming mukhang ihaharap sa public. yung emcee na gusto kami dating kunin para tumugtog sa isa pang event, ay hindi na nagpakita sa amin mula noon, hay…
tapos, nagkaroon ako ng sub-religion, isa na rin akong Haruhi-ist.. haha, naadik din ako sa "The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi" (Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuuutsu). at siyempre, kung isa akong Haruhi-ist, dapat alam ko ang dance step ng "Hare Hare Yukai"!!! I got hooked on the anime and the novels. very nice story, not your typical science fiction, fantasy novel.. at siyempre, tuloy pa rin ang pagsubaybay ko sa manga ng "School Rumble". inaabangan ko every week ang new chapters.
tapos, recently lang, visual novels naman ang pinagkakaabalahan ko. nagstart kasi yun nung ma-bored ako pag-iinternet, at paglalaro ng games sa newgrounds. naalala ko tuloy na gusto ko dating gumawa ng isang visual novel, kaya nagsearch ako ng visual novel games. tapos nakita ko sa isang site ang list ng mga free visual novel games. ni-check ko ang nasa list at pumili ako ng game na most downloaded na maliit lang ang file size. sa pagbabalance ko sa criteria ko, dinownload ko ang "Red Shift". It's second to the most downloaded, tapos almost 40mb lang siya, compared sa most downloaded na 89mb. tapos,ininstall ko, at nilaro. cool, nadala ako ng story. it's a mix of fantasy, philosophy(?), slice of life type ng story. it revolves around the protagonist named, Kouya, who is currently studying at school where there are only 3 boys (that was because the school was previously an all-girls school). then he met a selfish albino girl one night in the park. now, what happens when a selfish girl and boy meet? we hear the ringing of the bells…
at dahil namove ako sa story ng "Red Shift", nagdecide ako na itry yung most downloaded free visual novel dun sa site. "Narcissu" ang title nung game. dinownload ko na rin kasi, this might be a story much better than "Red Shift" if the people downloaded this game is three times the number of RS. then when i started playing, i was first captivated by the graphics. it's cinematic style, even though it's graphics is minimal. also, the music is very good, it's very soothing, it gives the story very much depth of melancholy which enhances the impact of the story as a whole. of course, the story is very good. i don't remember myself wanting to stop reading the story. it almost made me burst into tears, heavy-hearted, yet with a glorious feeling. it's about two terminally ill persons, who are left in the hospital until their life runs out. both of them don't want to die there or even at home, that's why they made their journey to the famous island with a field of flowers of 'narcissus'.
at ngayon, matutulog na ako dahil papagalitan ako pag naabutan pa ako ng nanay at tatay ko na gising, 4:00AM na… and now i leave you with the lyrics of "Saging na Saba"…next time na lang. XD
Saging na Saba by nepOdekS
saging na saba
ang aming meryenda
sa santa rosa
saging na saba
mamimiss kong talaga
ang saging na
luto ni lola
saging na saba
malaki at mataba
kelan muli matitikman?
hindi ko alam…
waw, chapter 17 .. Actually, this is a special post. special for me because of the number 17. I started typing this post April 17, 2007 at 10:10 pm, but I was so sleepy, so I just saved it as draft .. it's just that I got too distracted by the good things happening that's why now is the only time for me to edit it (June 24). : P
and because I didn't update the blog whole summer, here's what happened during the last 2 months …
eniweiz, the vacation time has ended, back to school works, namely OJT. as of now, I still don't have any company for my OJT. but it's ok, after all, at least I spent time with my loved one. However, the 2 weeks of our lives were wasted .. smallpox is the reason, so my flawless skin is scarred ..my whole body got marks, had the groove for the remnants of smallpox. I remember, I looked like a chocolate chip cookie, because I was filled with spots on the whole body and face. and consequently, I have had the time to go swimming in the pool or at least at the sea with floating feces.. huhu, Just when I'm in the mood to swim…
then finally, we defended our thesis, it's really super postponed, perhaps we had our pre-oral defense on the 20th, I'm not sure about the date. the defense was ok. If our other classmates were deep sauted, I think, we are only half-cooked. we defended without sleeping, because the defense was on sunday, and the people from OJTs arrived saturday.. then we had to revise our papers without consultation. haha, we were deprived of the privilege to be able to consult for our thesis before the defense. and that was the second time I wore our pink polo uniforms that were tailor-made just for thesis. I do not know why the call it OJT uniform when it's not used in OJT.
last june 10, we played for the debut party of our drummer in the band which we named nepOdekS. haha, for almost three Sundays and one saturday we practiced for this event!! We have thought a lot of songs to play, too bad the requirement is only 3 songs for the lineup. too bad? or maybe too good? hehe .. kuya v was absent, the bassist also which whom I haven't yet seen the face of, van (Did I spell it right?). But we're sure that we would be playing 2 original songs. We first practiced "what is it to burn?" by finch. But was rejected because it's too loud. then, "I could not ask for more" by Edwin McCain, just so, we couldn't practice it in time. We composed a song, the title is "saba banana", a response to the song "paper boat" by digital karma. but we ended up with "Alone" by Heart is .. too much time and money are spent just for this practice. then, when the event came … guess what? We sucked big time .. if you want to blame me, then go on, because my guitar started it all. because they forced me to use a Capo in the song, they wanted to raise the tone of the song by half-step. but my capo was stupid, it loosened right in the middle of the song .. We missed the whole second verse. and what's worst, I think the audience heard us as we scold the vocalist to continue without the guitar even though he was stunned by what happened .but in fairness, I completed the guitar solo without much errors. when we performed the final song, our other guitarist broke a string .. we were really unlucky. i was out of tune when i did backup vocals, hehe i couldn't hear my voice during that time, overall, none of us can show our faces to the public anymore. the emcee who was interested to book us for another event, didn't showed himself to us ever since that time, hay …
then, I have found a sub-religion, I am now a Haruhi-ist .. haha, I'm also addicted to "The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuuutsu). and of course, if I am a Haruhi-ist, I should know the dance step to "Hare Hare Yukai"! I got hooked on the anime and the novels. very nice story, not your typical science fiction, fantasy novel .. and of course, I still continue to track "School Rumble" manga. I look forward to new chapters every week.
then, just recently, visual novels catch my attention. it started when I'm bored from the internet, and playing games on Newgrounds. I remembered that I previously want to make a visual novel, so I searched visual novel games. then I saw a site the list of free visual novel games. of my check on the list and I select the most downloaded game only small file size. After considerations of the criteria , I downloaded "Red Shift". It's second to the most downloaded, and then he just almost 40MB, compared to most downloaded the 89mb. then, I installed, and I played. cool, I was moved by the story. It's a mix of fantasy, philosophy (?), slice of life type of story. It revolves around the protagonist named, Kouya, who is currently studying at school Where there are only three boys (that was inasmuch previously an all-girls school). then he met a selfish albino girl one night in the park. now, what happens when a selfish girl and boy meet? We Hear the ringing of the bells …
and because I was moved of the story of "Red Shift", I decided to try the most downloaded free visual novel on the site. "Narcissu" is the title of the game. I downloaded it because,
and now I have to sleep because I'll be scolded if my mother and father catch me awake at 4:00 am … and now I leave you with the lyrics of "Saba Banana" … 'til next time. XD
Saba bananas by nepOdekS
is our snack
When we practiced
at santa rosa
I really miss it
the banana that is
cooked by grandma
big and fat
when will i taste it again
i don't know…