…you forgot to track time…
…somehow you forgot what really is happening…
…are you pathetic?.. …maybe not…
…time lost you there….
…it’s now time to face…. …the present…. …time to stop wondering….. ….about the past…. …snap out of it….
…you seemed to realize… …that you’re begging…. ….for your life…..
…..you remembered that…. ….you were removed from the can….. ….and a new world appeared to you….
….then you looked up to the ceiling….
…then you saw the fork…. …its diving straight at your soft body…
….yes,… …now you remembered that…. ….someone wants to pierce your body…. …but… ….you don’t know what will happen next…. ….you’re not sure…. ….it seems so slow….. …..yes, it’s slow…… …..you remembered also that time slows down when you’re about to die…….
…..praying…..
….praying…..
…praying….
….it is all that you can do…. …to pray…. …pray?…. ….for what?…. ….to be saved from the dreaded fork….. ….that’s about to pierce through your body?…. ….what can a prayer do?…. …..nothing…. ….it is inevitable….. ….soon enough…. ….it will strike you….. …soon enough, it will hurt you…. ….hurt you?….
….yes….. ….you remembered about…. ….PAIN….
…PAIN…
…PAIN…
…PAIN…
…PAIN…
…PAIN…
…..it ran to your mind…. …over and over…. ….how would it feel?…. ….you’re sure…. ….it’s not pleasant…. ….it’s all you know…. ….would you want to know?…. …you’re curious…. ….would it make a difference?…. …you’re life is full of pain already…. …full of grief…. …sorrow…. …you felt that you are… …the lowest object…. …in the whole universe…. …pathetic….
…when suddenly….
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…what was that?….
….you looked down…. …you noticed that…. ….the fork…….. …it’s already….. …in you…. …..you didn’t react……. ….nothing….. ….no emotions….. …..no tears…….. …..insensitive?…… ….no…. …you’re just…
….you….
….everything…. ….is so painful…. ….a little more pain……. ….doesn’t….. …..make a difference at all…….. ….it’s nothing…….. ….nothing…..
….but…..
….is it true?…. ….no emotions?….. …..no tears?…….. ….it’s nothing?….
…..deep down….. ….it really hurts……
….there’s not enough emotions in the world to… ….describe what you’re feeling….
….there’s not enough tears in the world to…. ….make the pain go away….
….there’s not enough nothing in the world to…. ….hide the pain inside…..
….there’s also not enough time in the world to…. ….wish everything was a bad dream….
….there’s also not enough words in the world to…. ….say what’s on your mind…..
….and….
….there’s not enough love in the world to…… ….heal you from your suffering…..
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nakakayamot, nakakainis
tila ba oras ay sobrang bilis
isang linggo ay biglang umalis
makapiling ka lang ang aking nais.
grr… parang tanga yung tula kuno. naiinis ako!!! paghihintayin ka ng isa’t kalahating oras, tapos kahit sorry, wala kang maririnig. pag nagwalk-out ka, di ka man lang hahabulin.parang tanga nga naman ang mundo.tapos hindi pa nagtetext. nakakapag-internet ng magdamag sa internet shop, tapos walang pangload kahit P25? tapos, aalis na pala, papuntang malayo, hindi man lang sa kin sinabi sa loob ng isang linggo. ang haba ng oras, walang paalam.kung hindi pa ako pupunta sa bahay nila, hindi ko pa malalaman. tingnan mo nga naman, ako pa yung pumunta sa bahay nila. pero hindi ako magsosorry. kala mo ha? suot ko pa naman ang tshirt na bigay mo. ang pinakamalufet nun, naligo ako (>_<) (joke)!!! para naman 1,000,000 pogi points ako sa yo. nakakasawa na ang mainis. nakakasawa na ang malungkot. nakakasawa na ang kape, umaga, tanghali, gabi na lang, kape pa rin; kapeng may milo kaya? o kaya ay milong may kape? naiinis pa rin ako… kahit na magulo ang isip ko ngayon. inimbitahan ka ng pamilya ko dahil may nagbirthday, pero as usual ayaw mo pa rin pumunta. lagi naman. pero pag pamilya mo ang may occasion, lagi akong ibinabandera. pero buti na lang, marunong na akong tumanggi ngayon. actually marami pa kong gusto sabihin kaya lang gusto ko sabihin na lang ng personal sa yo. kilala mo kung sino ka, tapos, yung iba dito, kilala kung sino ka, sana naman ay marunong kang makipag-usap….
…wei, i feel much better now…. …just a little…