…mother?!…
….but this time it was, somewhat…
…different.
It’s a whole new wide universe where everyone is happy… …but i’m happy… …i think i am…
…millions of the same species as yours… ….swimming and playing…. …it’s as if the whole eternity is within their grasp… …worries… ….they do not have them…. ….smiling faces… …you see them everywhere…. …..everything you can see is blue… …but their faces aren’t…. …they’re yellow… …….yes…… …..yellow, happiness fill their faces…. …..one thing that never landed on any part of your face while inside the crowded can….
….what is happiness?….
…isn’t it happiness when everyone’s smiling?…. …maybe… ….everyone inside the can with you smile when you smile at them…. ….but something is really weird about it….. …you don’t know…. ….it seems that they’re smiling…. …but…. …their eyes tell something different….. ….freaky….. …it’s like they’re smiling just because…. …you smiled at them…. …is that what they really want?…. …do they really want to smile?…. …or are they really capable of smiling whole-heartedly?….. …mysteries fill your mind once again….. ….but wait…. ….what about that dream?… …was it for real?…
..it seemed so…… …but how can it be so….. …but the place looks and feels familiar…. ….and mother…. ….a real…. …mother…. …wait…. ….father is also there…. …….then………….
gasp… ….you saw a thin rope emerging beneath the sea bed…. …it’s a net…. …a net?… ….it’s directly below you…. ….you fell for the trap….. …. it’s approaching you from below….. …everyone you see….. …is in total panic…. ….petrified by the scene…. ….you stood there motionless….. ….eyes widely opened….. ….heart pounding very quickly…. ….then…..
….someone pushed you away from the net…. …it was…. ….father…… …yes, it was father….. …..he said something as he was being taken away by the net…..
“please, take care of yourself and your mother for me….”
“i love you both…..”
….mother rushed towards you…. …embracing you…. …while weeping….. ….with her eyes without tears….. ….she held you much more tighter…. …..it’s as if her heart is being crushed…. …very, very slowly…. ….for she cannot bear to watch your father being taken away to the surface…. ….away from the sea….. ….away from her side…..
….you hugged her back…. ….for you understand the pain that she suffers…. ….because her flesh and your flesh…. ….was once…. …one….
…..minutes passed…..
….you still hold her…. …she still holds you….. …she’s still crying….. …she’s still sad…. ….and agonized…… ….everything seemed very slow…. ….every moment…… ….you seemed to feel…. …..loneliness…… ….for the very first time…… …..you saw your parents……. …..apart….. ….then…. …something…… ….is falling….. ….from the surface….. ….you can’t see it clearly….. ….it seemed blurred……. ….then it landed on the sea bed…… …..you swam closer…. …and closer….. …..curiousity controls you….. …..when suddenly….. ….your mother rushed towards you….. …..held you tightly…… ….covered your eyes….. ….as she faced back at the foreign object that stimulated your senses…..
….you start to wonder….. ….why?…. ….it seems that she’s dragging you away from that….. ….thing….. ….then she whispered…..
“your father and i really love you….”
“please don’t look anymore…”
“….i want you to *gasp* trust me….”
“please…….”
“….never forget us…..”
“….we’ll be watching you from now on…..”
BOOOM!!!!
….suddenly, everything went dark, as well as bright….. ….you can’t remember very much, but you seem blinded by the events happening….. ….the only thing that you remember is…. ….the feeling…. ….as your mother holds you very tight….. ….it seems her affection for you is overflowing…. …..she seems…. ….smiling…. …(?)…. ….you asked yourself….. ….why?…. ….even though the worst is happening…..
…..and now, you can’t even remember the next thing that happens….. ….then you woke up inside the can…. …empty-minded….. ….you have no memory of anything….. ….so you kept on smiling……. …..ever since……
“please…….”
“….never forget us…..”
“….we’ll be watching you from now on…..”
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cencia na senyo… medyo malungkot ang blog ko ngayon, pero kahit ganun, masaya pa rin ako dahil katabi ko ngayon ang aking one and only (one and only nga ba naman?) !!! medyo ordinaryo lang ang mga nangyari sa akin simula ng last akong magpost dito. kaya medyo ala akong masasabi ngayon. ewan natin, malay nyo? pero mahaba na ang naisulat ko, hehe… ei, kung may comment naman kau dito sa blog ko, i-post nyo naman, kahit na lait-laitin nyo ok lang. ayos lang yon. humanda nga lang kayo, dahil lalaiitin ko din ang blogs nyo!!!! bwahahaha!!!! eniwei, ala na talaga akong mapiga sa utak ko, naibuhos ko na dun sa sardinas na sinulat ko jan s taas. next time na lang ulit.
( >___< ) wahehe….. tandaan nyo na lang na, ayos lang mag-marijuana, wag lang sasabayan ng alak!!!! cia nga pala hindi ako adik, hanggang inom lang, alang marijuana, medyo asa katinuan pa naman ako noh?!
hao~! aw… malungkot sya, kinda bittersweet. parang dating nya half remembered dream na limot mo, but what you felt remained.
teka, so ba nung nasa sardines sya, patay sya and yung can is the afterlife to reincarnation? or is it parang yung a new kind of reality? ah basta, pag patuloy mo kasi i wanna know how this would turn out. sige peace~! ingat ka. God bless. wo ai ne. ( you i love).
hahaha, para tayong tanga, tayo lang 2 ang nag-uusap,wahehehe…. it’s up to you kung ano ang gusto mong isipin tungkol sa mga sinusulat ko. usually nmn critics and readers lang ang nagbibigay ng interpretation sa mga literary works? (as if literary works ang pinaggagagawa ko dito) mapapansin na lang ng author na may social relevance ang mga works nya kahit na nung sinulat nya to ay wala lang, pampalipas oras lang. pero, tandaan mo na may meaning lahat ng sinusulat ko todits… …pero di ko sasabihin sau… *belat* -___< para sa akin na lang muna yun. hmmm…. yoko na baka gulpihin mo na ako… wahehehe…
way to go bb!hehehe…astig blog mo!!mejo malungkot nga lang pero astig pa rin!keep it up..astig talaga!wala na me masabi…sige,hanggang sa muli..